Et Vakkert Rot Inni

Yesterday taught me a lot.

I was on my walk with my iPod, exactly like what I do everyday for an hour or so. I was walking past the softball field from Eagle Hall and I saw this little beat up path. I love to explore, so without thinking it through, I was already on this path through the woods. Everyone on campus probably knew about this little mysterious way already and probably knew for a long time, but I didn't care. For around a half hour in the middle afternoon, I owned it. I couldn't leave. It was so beautiful and my soundtrack to these moments was perfection.

I was listening to Yael Naim's "Far Far". Months ago, iTunes offered this track as a free download and knowing that she is the mastermind of "New Soul". I had completely forgot it was on iPod. So, I just randomly started playing it...again...and again...and again...and again...

It was one of those songs where it hits so close to home, it's scary. I was a little girl absorbing my fresh, green surroundings and staring in pure vulnerable, naive wonder. It was amazing and refreshing. I heard words in that song that I had been needing to hear for quite some time.

"So shake it yourself now deep inside,
deeper than you ever dared,
deeper than you ever dared,
there's a beautiful mess inside"

I don't know myself as much I would like, nor do I love myself as much I want to. This simple song blossomed the need to know how to be Hannah Mills with self-appreciation. So, thanks Yael Naim for giving me that :-)

Here is the song that ignited my thirst for self-discovery:


Title: "A Beautiful Mess Inside" in Norwegian
In My Head: "Far Far" by Yael Naim